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    By Dir en grey
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    Hopeless love...

    Know what sucks?

    when you fall for someone that you shouldn't fall for...

    and I don't mean in the bad boy sort of way...




    god damn why does he have to live so far away?? >.<



    to think I fell so hard for someone who I've never met, and lives on the other side of the country...



    I would give almost anything to live near him...



    *sigh*
    </3

Tuesday, 10 March 2009

Saturday, 07 March 2009

Monday, 02 March 2009

  • hit fastforward and skip this shit.

    So the last time we talked on MSN was Wednesday.
    which was only for about 5 min.
    Before that was Monday.. which was over a long period of time but he only wrote like 4-5 messages..

    Last time I talked to him was on the phone for less than 2 minutes on Friday. Just to see if he was gonna hang out with me or not.

    And I know he's busy with his music. But he was online last night... and didn't talk to me...

    So now I'm trying to figure out if I did something wrong, if he's not interested anymore, or what the fuck is going on...

    Because it hurts to have been talking to him everyday for over a month, and then have him practically disappear..

    I don't wanna appear desperate, but I do know I'm justified in wanting answers.. You really shouldn't do stuff like that to people, no excuses, unless there is something major happening, which I know isn't because he was playing video games yesterday through steam..

    its probably the only thing that will ever bug me about guys.. They like to drop communication. Or at least all three guys I've dated so far have done it to some degree...

    Half my consultants say just dump him. The other half say he's probably still interested, but scared.


    And its not even the lack of communication that bugs me. Its that I didn't get a warning of any kind. Like if he had told me he would be busy all week, I wouldn't be worried or annoyed at all.  But he didn't so now I don't know what to think..

    on top of that when I talked to him on Friday, I was inviting him to go out to dinner with me and my friends. He jokingly called me "high maintenance"... and while he said it jokingly, it has now been long enough that my mind is twisted and thinking maybe he really does think that...

    but I hate making people spend money, and only 2 of the 4 times we've gone out have we actually spent money, and the first time he was the one who suggested it and the second time he didn't need to spend money. So again, I don't get it...


    at this point I would prefer any sort of response, both positive or negative.

    Positive, we can continue to see where this, whatever it is, takes us.

    Negative, I can move on and get over it.

    but I am going to wait for a response, because I don't really want to move on without hearing his side of the story..



    what I wouldn't give for a fast forward button..

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