i hate it when youre vague

when i cant understand what you mean

i cant tell if youre meaning me or something entirely different


and when it seems like your taking something so small and making it big

i dont udnerstand why.

i cant tell if youre actually making a big deal out of that one little argument

or if something bigger is going on that im missing

im wondering if i should be preparing for something big


i hate when youre vague

because i dont know what to do.

because i dont know what to say to make it better

i dont know what youre thinking

and that scares me

i was trying not to think or worry about you leaving me
i know you love me, and i love you too
i thought we can work through this, it was just a small argument, our smallest ever.
but when you say something like that.. about wondering when is the time to give up or keep trying...

not even thoughts of your love can reassure me until it comes from your mouth.

i feel like im balancing between having things fixed and stronger, or having you leave me all alone.

i want new friends.

again.

i hate.

anxiety.

fuck this.

im gonna talk to my doctor.

no way this is normal.